Sunday, August 31, 2008
im so tired tt i actually fell sound aslp in class today aft lunch... okies... mayb it was the heavy lunch but then it's also definitely my tiredness... i tink i nvr really slept well since like e nite b4 the MHR essay deadline?? i actually had a nightmare okies... i deamt tt i couldn't finish not mine but someone else's essay by the deadline cux i couldn't get any references and stuff... i know tt sounds weird but then... it's really pressure...
im gg genting and KL this thurs... i hope everything is fine and most of all... SAFE!!!! SAFETY IS PRIORITY!! seriously... just now at ahma hse heard them talk abt how messy and dangerous m'sia is im so scared... nobody knows im gg KL... all thinks tt im gg to genting only... so nothing better happen man... even if anything wanna happen... pls pls pls let it be something good!! im so scared now... cux only sherry knows... haha... andy n diana i haven got a chance to talk to them yet...
just now my aunt asked if im gg m'sia and i said yes n when she asked me *looking concerned* if im gg KL i said no... and when i said im gg direct to genting can see her heave a big sigh of relieve kind... so now im officially scared... shit! wad did i get myself into?!?! n i seriously hope tt on thurs aftnn or nite still got extra rms... as in rms at genting tt i can get at half price cux some idiot refuse to pay another $70 more... if i cannot enjoy my theme park im so gonna get angry n pissed... but no choice gotta stick to him cux cannot wander off alone... if is in singapore... im so outta thr...
argh! duno la!! okies... so now to start ranting abt the proj... the SM proj seems to be more of a pair work (me and sherry n hew?)... Terence is totally useless... seriously... not tt i like backstabbing or wad... but seriously... did he even do anything except for screwing it up?!? i wonder if he even put in effort! Shuduan... wad can i say... to think tt if she actually knew tt Choon Kiat had to go back KL to do his wedding things and she refusing to present e part... it's so selfish of her! i mean seriously... has she actually tot of him and his wife-to-be's feelings?!?! if it was her, wld she like to b in his shoes? ergh! n still got 1 more person... shihao... okies... i really seriously feel tt e reason tt he's "pardoned" is cux he's in our clique? i duno la... i mean i know he shows concern and wants to do something n yeps it was me who took away his part... so mayb aftall he's not tt bad? i understand tt he's more busy n preoccupied den we wld like to b... so okies... nxt sem i shall not do tt anymore... *promise to self!*
i was watching the tv and it actually did mention abt finding the one... n e only comment tt i said was "Ooo yeah... how i wished but i know all crap!" i shocked myself by saying this... did i just purely give up hope? as in give up hope in general.. i really duno.. i hope i dun...
somehow i nvr really felt hurt or anything... i duno... i mean do i wanna experience it? yes and no... yes cux i really wanna know how it is... no is of cux i hope tt i can live a fairytale life... i really duno... im so afraid tt i just really closed the door to my emotions shut alr... b4 i went to disney i actually was in tt stage... but thr i managed to open it and finally i felt human... but now?
somehow singapore just manages to harden me and i hate it... hais... i duno la...
Ooo yeahs... i feel the need to warn some idiots... pls pls pls... if u dun even know me... pls dun claim to b interested in me cux tt's just so shallow! nobody will b beautiful or easy on the eyes forever... i know my limits... i dun think tt im pretty but then... pls dun come to me n say "Ooo cux u aren't ugly... we shd get tgt"... those attitude pisses me off n it just goes to show how shallow the person is... i believe physical appearance does play a part but it shdn't b top of the list...
argh... im just kinda frustrated... i duno for wad... e person tt was supposed to actually like me didn't n told me some pretty harsh stuff... those tt i totally no int in is irritating me...
okies... tis post isn't making any sense alr... i dun even know wad im typing anymore... im like watching living lohan with my left eye and ear and typing with my right eye on the com... hahas... crazy me...
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